Kidoworld 12

最近有点觉得，生活很空洞。
其实一直以来的生活都是如此。
可以说是自由、无拘无束，也可以说是漫无目标、浑浑噩噩。

上个星期，差点发疯了。
觉得生活欠缺了一些事情，缺少了一些，追寻的目标。

也许我应该离开都市生活几天，冷静一下。
就很突然的请了几天假，安排了一个人的旅行。
明天晚上就出发，希望回来后我会对生活有所改观。

我们见面了，说了一些话。
感觉上还不错。
就这样慢慢的，或许真的会好一点。

还有，也许单身太久，有点忘了有人在身边是什么感觉……哈哈
单身也不是不好，但也是时候学习和人相处了？
不过就像某人说的，我要喜欢人，还真是不容易。
也没很挑阿？哈哈
总有一天，我会遇到我喜欢的，另一个人。^^

Kidoworld 11

"Everyone should move on.
Since she already did and you don't think she's the one, what's there to wait for?"
Quoted from a friend.

And I answered:
"I'm just waiting for someone to talk me out of it, or the time to come."

She might not be the first one to tell me that.
Perhaps she's the one, perhaps the time has come.
And I made my first step.

No one asked what my first step was, or is.
She did. She told me to smile.
I like how things are so simple and how she don't know about anything.

My first step would never have come so soon if it wasn't for her, perhaps.
So I thanked her.

I made my first step.
I hope that things will get better.

There's just this one last thing I wanted to ask.
Have I not moved on all these years?

Kidoworld 10

At this point I'm like...oh shit...why do I always have to tell people about my things...and why did I have to cry in front of someone i barely know??!!!
Not once but twice!! Damn it!
Now I look like a kid more than ever, who is just so stupid and couldn't get over some...people.

Ok it may be the truth but seriously, I'm working on it.
Life has more important things now. :)
I just gonna make sure that last night it will be the last time I cry for her, that's it.

I'm gonna make the first move sooner or later.
Better sooner than later, cause it does no good to me at all.
And most importantly, I need to stop acting like a baby in front of people.
No more tears, no more crying.
Time for vulnerability has ended.

Seriously, I'll just need to get over it.
I promise myself there'll be no third time!!!
No more stupid stories.

I shall, from today onwards, do whatever I can to stop making people think I'm cry baby!!!! No more!!!!

Kidoworld 9

最近喝了好多酒……至少每个星期都在喝。
其实也不算太多，但对我而言，是非常多。

最近认识了一个朋友，一个超爱喝酒的朋友。
在我人生中，除了我的兄弟以外，我是第一次遇见这么爱喝酒，而又承认的人。
刚开始就只是因为她找不到朋友陪她喝，就找了我们。
就这样喝，喝，再喝。

我酒量不好，也喝不出酒有什么好喝，还是在喝。
也许生活最近多姿多彩了，有时候呆在家里觉得好奇怪。
更奇怪的是，我竟然会有这种想法。

以前喝了酒会睡得很好，现在也一样。
最不一样的是，现在第二天醒来，我会很精神。
是酒精作祟吗？那作用也太慢了吧？

虽然还不至于酒后乱性，还是觉得好奇怪。
然后看过了那么多人喝酒，真的相信酒真会让人乱性。
我相信我不会。
喝过就算。
喝了就呕，能怎么乱？哈哈！